:)

k, so yea, I've been out and promised to be back over and over... yea, but i've been busy!!! and rightfully so, I'm learning french now.. so if there's anyone out there willing to be my french pen-pall, or know of french chat rooms or what not, please holla...

other than that, since my last blog, a lot has happened... namely:
- Finally finished my MSc programme
- Visited my country of birth after 9 years of absence..
- Resolved a couple of women issues in my life (and gave birth to new ones)
- Started french classes
- Day dreaming about PhD!!

.. thats all for now.. see you in ..another 6 months' time :D. I love you my baby, mwah!!

.....yawn

What is it? like the end of the year....!! or not..:( ... almost there.

oh, and Yea!! I'm back!

Another day gone by,

I decided to rest today and rest I did. Rest often take the meaning of doing whatever will use up the least amount of energy. My energy. So, I woke up, watched boerwolf (for the second time). Not that its all that good, but then, I got my hands on one with better clarity than the first one I watched... so i watched it just to check out the graphical works, pretty cool. I wonder if the game graphics is close.

Well, I made an appointment witht the optometrist... for next week, decided to do the teeth and eye in one week, get it over with... I hope these doctors know what they are doing this time around though,...

In search for an antivirus for the pc. I got two :) , very good and very free.

Aviva AntiVir PersonalEdition Classic 7 and Alwil Avast! 4.6 Home Edition thanks to yahoo.

oh well, I hope they cure all the woes on my pc.

I'm going to have a late night today, I had a power nap which should carry me for like 6 hours, I've used half of these up already.

first week of march

Another day gone by.

I started off the day chasing down tenants by driving across Midrand only to loose out my 'change' to some strange country man. This was right out of bed, before a shower or breakfast. I felt a little awkward and dirty for the better part of the day.

I did not find the tenant, so I went back to work. The day started off as a drag as usual...a bit of chat here and there with nothing really done. I had just enough motivation to do a search on how people actually get lazy, and if there is a medical case of my special state of laziness. I did find some syndrome which, unfortunately, I did not have enough motivation to read through. That will have to be reserved for another day. Was able to knock off work just before 3 pm.

@ home though, there was a mini-party, D' had two colleagues over for a braai, one of them brought a friend-khanyi. She's apparently a lazy person who's come to terms with her laziness. solution: do not fight it, embrace it, its who you are, don't try and do 'everything', better still, don't do anything... (probably, unless u really have to)... sounds like a sweet solution, but one I’m also not too eager to take.

My thoughts for now is that I've placed my self in a position where I'm having to do a lot o things I do not like, (or always like) and thus doing them is a burden. I think I need to find things I enjoy doing; small things, nothing grandeur. Mix as many of these with things I ‘HAVE’ to do as much as possible and see how far that takes me.

My list of love-dos so far include

1. Sleeping
2. writing on random thoughts
3. reading
4. sipping on whatever
5. chatting (cyber)
6. movies
7. …some series
8. ? ? deal hunting on e-auction

These will be fined out though, cause I’m already spotting some things I do a lot but not necessarily enjoy.

Of fear and faith

A lot have been written on fear, faith, and how each affects our lives. The norm is that fear should be resented and avoided while faith, desired and embraced. Normally, the latter is also associated with a positive view at life, indirectly or directly leading to positive outcomes in one's life endeavors.

-These are easily understood and accepted. However, does one needs to question the extent to which these two characters affect life, and even more so, how to relate to each of the emotions/behaviors for maximal outcomes.

...hello

..yet another 'looong time'.
Its a year now at work and I'm still on this thesis. I'm pretty close to finishing though. Close. So close, I can smell it!!!!

light?

life is so full of 'it'..

code is still troublesome.. but derrick seem to have had a break through, if only i can break it too.

now, I'm going home, hope this weekend brings some good news, for me and all.... give me strength brothers.. push me on..

Relapse

Ola!
Once in a while, something out of the blues reminds me of ur existence, and I come around to rub your nape...

Its been like 5-months.. another long stretch inbetween documentation. This is bound to change now, in what ways is something I'll see. I'm putting this up to remind me of what needs to be done.

Ahoy

Monday, October 09, 2006:

ahh.. finally.. after six months of 'getting the job'..i finally start working.

Back in march.. a mail circulated by head of research group, nico ventura stated that 'em siemens needed some guys, i applied got called for interview..and later, got called that i got taken..

accepted job offer... and had to spend six months processing documents to start work, finally, last week, oct-2, i joined siemens.. apparently, i'll probably need this to keep up with whats happening and progress work.

My masters' research is still on going.. seeing that I could not finish up with the MUD on time.. anyways.. Hope things go smoothly.

On first week at work:

Monday: Intro to company. Sat in and started work on SS7 readup. Not much other than 'many accronyms' were learnt...

Tuesday, nothing much either. Took early day off to go to jozi. Slept over at br. Sunday since funmi was visiting and she insisted on seeing moi.. ..not much esle was done at work..

wed: well, started training on IN@OVerview.. with Andrew Quinn.

Thursday: IN@OV

Fri: IN@OV

Saturday: off to swaziland..

Sunday: Back from Swaziland

Monday: Today.. back at work.. settling in. Got my phone..still no personel number though.. so I'm still kinda settling in. Don't have much to do yet. I'll probably spend the day making plans and timetables plus drinking lots of tea!!..
till

light, I see light

after like a month of working on, begging, pleading with, getting pissed at and re-falling in love with my code, it is finally giving me some loving...

I was able to get some OK results today, which although isn't satisfactory, makes more sense with respect with the source code.. sounds like prayers are finally answered..(Thank God, aayiii!!)

Life's been fun though, a friend submitted her thesis, she's so so free,
Still can't get the psp thingy' to surf the net,.. and I found out I got the hk/singapore version, meaning, I'm not qualified for the free movies being handed out for RSA versions..

on other stuffs-
NSS':1. programme for Africa day's celebration: a debate on Democratization of africa was pretty interesting and enlightning on the part of Nigeria and Africa as a whole. In as much as we are kinda unique, our problems as a nation is neither new nor specific to Nigeria alone.
2. Blanket drive is kinda getting a good ride. People are donating, cash and clothings, which is very good.
3. Soccer match on sat was a success!!!

Cape town: not so safe for now, the security guards nation-wide, are on strike!!, 've been for the past 1..2 months.. the public transport guys are planning to do something similar,.. so many things are happening in this country and for those that can read signs, say something...

Anyways, back to some more work before sleepin

tick tock

my code..

my c++ code

my MUD C++ Code is still not working, I've been working on this piece for over 3 months now and the buggs (or whatever the woes are) seem to evade me.. I'ma go shopping for a nuclear device to blow up the whole darn thing..and I'm seriously serious about that.

I'm so stressed from this coding and I'm writing as an outlet. I've been told this is called a research-block or whatever, a stage where you seem to go no where. Does it have an ending, I like needed a break last year!!!. I'm not the only one there though, I've got a couple of friends in the same situation. I guess I need to pray on this thing.

Its been raining in capetown for like 2 weeks non stop.. which is amazing only to stop like two days ago..
Oh well, so much for blogging. now to get back to work.

lookin inside

Its a bad habit, to start and not to follow through, much worse than not finishing...

life's been busy. Busy is the word that best describes it. A little scary goes with it too, cause I have so much to do in so little time, writing this actually feels like an unprofitable use of such expensive time, anyways... I think I need a life coach.

lets change the world!!, our World.

Okay, thinking back, last week, thursday, I attended a programme, organised by the Nigerian Consulate office in south africa for Investors wanting to go invest in Nigeria.

The programme included a speech from the Ambassador of Nigeria to South Africa, One from the Consulate-Generale... of the same office, and then one from 3 top executives from three South-African companies investing in Nigeria.

The first two were very impressive. For someone who left Nigeria a couple of years ago, I'm always eager to hear of news from/about home. The speech were filled with sweet tales(or information) about the riches and reasons for one to invest in Nigeria, most of which One must have heard before. There were new ones about the natural reaches of Nigeria, which made one shake his/her head, considering the manner in which Nigerians seem to be repelled rather than be attracted and attached to the wealth.

However, the touching part of the programme came when the foreign investors gave thier speeches about Nigeria. Firstly, A Manager(Nigerian) from a consultant firm(Philips, of who's origin i'm not sure of)gave a detailed and well researched talk about the pros, cons, barriers and other aspects affecting the posibilities of investement opportunties for South African companies in Nigeria. This was followed by a presentation by the present Network Manager of MTN South Africa, who was formerly working in Nigeria, a Presentation from the CEO of Johnnic Inc. (A multi-media bizz co.) and then by SVC(A transport and Logistics company).

The passion with which these fellows spoke was very interesting. They were able to talk about Nigeria in a way, a lot of Nigerians can not. For a period of time, I saw a group of people, foreigners, who have gone to Nigeria, talking about Nigeria.
Many of my movement through africa has given me the encounter with All forms of Africans. They mostly do have something or the other to say about the Nigeria. Without going into the contents of thier comments, they are mostly un-educated comments.

They were not just trying to woo the investors. They were very practical. They did talk of the pros and the cons. The problems present in Nigeria, which is mostly the lack of a dependable utility provision, bad road and communication systems.... and so on. But then, they talked of the potentials of the country. Of why they would invest so much money that, it will take them 8-10 years to get any return on investment (in the case of MTN-Nigeria). And if the information given at the talk was true, Makes me wonder why I should slave myself away for another man's land when foreigners can see so much potential and hope for my country. They did talk of thier fears, owing to the politically unstable past of the country, as well as the very different people in the country. But after working for a couple of years, the results are very promising.

Brian, the Johnnic Inc. CEO runs the Johnnic under Johnns communication group of companies, the same one that owns the South african sunday times. The Johnnic in Nigeria is currently involved in the sales of movies in the form of VCDs and is distributing for Numetro, Warner bros(if i'm right) and a couple of other companies. He gave a short story about thier success in Nigeria. He was very particular about the fact that, what worked in South Africa, and many other countries normally doesn't (won't) work in Nigeria. A typical example is that of selling imported dvds and music disks. These normally go for an amout of $10.00 and in South Africa for about R100.00. In Nigeria, the equivalent cost of that would be around 2000.00-Naira. Why would anyone buy that when you can get the pirated one for 200.00 Naira? The Johnnic company, on getting to Nigeria, were faced this problem. To solve it, they focused on marketing the advantages of buying an original product, and working hard to mark the price of a vcd(of an international movie) down to about 260.00 Naira. The company had to undergo many more 'out of the box' thinking in order to have a ground in Nigeria. The issue of road-side markets also had to be properly considered as compared to an all-supermarket sales which is the norm in other parts of the world. After 3 months of production in Nigeria, the success rate of the company is something the CEO is very proud of.

The examples given by the other presenters showed people who were interested in Doing business in Nigeria. They did thier homework- proper market research before venturing into the business. They were very practical about the Nigerian issues and thus, they were successful. The MTN-Nigeria was able to make more money than they've made in any other country in thier business history.

There are still many markets left untapped though. Issues like the transport system,which, could still be a complete duty of the government for upkeep/upgrade is in a pity state. Many of the potentials of Nigeria as a nation are kept in that potential state due to clamping and clogging factors like transport, as well as other infrastructures. Hope lies in promises and projects in the way by the present government to solve these issues.

In as much as the programme was eye opening and spirit lifting, I hope to draw on the courage and insight of those people in fueling my aim to go back home. But first, I must finish this Masters Thesis!, so I'm back to some more C++.

64 days and counting

Okayy, Its 64 days and counting. This is my second blog for this year which shows a very bad frequency for anything close to a journal/diary/blog.

What have I been up to? The usual.In my last blog, I indicated my intention to apply for phd which I did, although not with much enthusia'.. well, I've been pulling and getting pulled by the forces and efforts related to my masters thesis; these include myself, deadlines, my supervisors, calls for papers, Job applications, inflow and outflow of masters student in the research group and many many more..Through all these, I've noticed a increasing growth of desire to work better towards the conclusion of my masters thesis----A good sign!

In the process of the time though, I've neglected things and started thinking of other things...Causing a lot of jumbles in my life's 'room'.. This thus calls for a concious effort at making things right.(including my bLog)

Why would keeping a we-b'log help in making things right? Well, after reading on one of my other interests... (Cybernetics), I was reminded of the importance of a FEEDBACK mechanism in any system that seeks to reach a level of equilibrium or "peace" or "Stable State" or something close to "perfection". The log, if well doc'ed and followed could be a form of feedback in my case. How is this? technically speeking, if a sample of what was done was kept so that future processes can access this sample and thinking on it, work on the present scene a little better, the present results may be better. The frequency of this sampling however, does have a lot of effect on the performance expected and looking at my rate,.. its..... (I won't even go there).

I'm getting a lot of motivations at the moment to do things better though and I hope things do get better.

I've got 26 days to write up my thesis, which still includes writing up like 2.5 mega code projects...
I'm to be the welfare officer for the Nigerain Student Society for UCT...
I'm a Research assistants, so I have to set up a VPN and design/upkeep the Research groups' website..
I Have a blog to keep.
And I still have to eat, take my bath and many many more!!! all in 24 HOURSSS>....

//side thought, Who gets to host the World Cup if Germany gets infested with the Bird-Flu, (by 05-march,A cat was recorded to have died of the disease in Germany)

janny

Ah, this blog thingy, I actually did write up a longggg blog for a first of this year, and the internet connection/computer went crazy, and off went my blog, not motivated at all to write another....

but i finally sent in an application for phd,.. another story alltogether..
Back in cape town and I've been lazy like crazy.

and listening to sunny Ade..mmm(Eje'n logba ara mi!)

Kingdom, Here I am.

dav told me he just gave birth to his blog and that reminded me of mine.. unfortunately, my body and soul are so 'holiday conscious', its hard doing anything at all. I'ma try some finger-tappin though.

OOkaayyy, finally home! On my way home though, somewhere between ma 24 hours of raodtrip, I stopped over to spend a few days with me doc. Uncle. Anyways, it was good, had a cool time sipping on ol'time tales, happenings in sz since I left for school, some cool tales of kimberly, land of kimberlite and all the while, watching lots of nollywood products.

Anyways, last sunday morning, i Left kimberly for sz, & made it home by 8pm sunday. The journey although long, was shorter and better than what it used to be; the drivers were good and fast.

It was good to meet everyone at home. Still the same faces, same attitudes, smiles, smacks, and stuff, which is good, Its good to be home. Ofcourse there were bags stories and tales to be told.... both by me and by those i met at home. Not all of them were happy tales, although nothing too surprising too. This got me thinking though, and right now, I wonder if there is any thing like 'maturity' or growing wiser.

Its about my 5th day in sz after a 5 months leave. The mastapa church branch opened two more branches in my area even though it already splited to two in july,=>4 from 1. I hope to see everyone though, at least those who are still around before I leave for school.

Ma bro/sis are leaving for school too, next week. I'm happy for them. I hope they enjoy it. They're going to be so far away though... Everyone is all so grown up now..don't know exactly how I'll feel about that, 'll see.

its back to some academic and some non-academic (yet tedious) duties. I guess i really have to learn some scriptin' language now. I'll see how that goes. Till then, goodbye ma blog ...
Its (lion's roar like) thundering outside now, haven't heard this in a looonnngg time, Its amazing how things, especially the weather is so different by the sea side town of capetown.

crappy thing.. I started writing a very loonnggg blog, mother of all blogss and I went home for some chow. On my return, I found my pc got restarted by some stupid xp-update (I think!!).. crap! indeed.

Its been a loonggg semester and finaly, I'm going home.. tomorrow. I have to start rubbin ma butts for the 24hr roadtrip.

Maybe I'll be a better blogger next year..

feedback/feedforward

heey, looooong time#

man's been so busy,,, what 've i done since..
eer, still working on project like i'm not.. but things are geting better

have to write a lot of late.. submitted my report for sattech although, i haven't heard anything about from the intructor. happy its over. I'll still have towrite an exam on it though.. hope its' going to be cool.. that like almost end of june..kepler'law to orbit design..

on another note, lectures are over, time to study for my 3 paper exam... cool eeh.. unlike my undergrads when i had to write like a million papers in an exam kiddin. just about 10 but it was a lot

of late, moving on with project, changed topic for the second time, i'm now moving to analysis of mud for a stbc cdma system.. counds cool although now i won't be going to hardware anymore...

all these haven' kept me from ma moves though..

of late.. eer..

xxx-the next level, cool, better than the first xxx.
did i mention love actually
and eer robots that was cool kinda kidish but funny

finally saw team america looks like a univ.'student's project, but nice story and puppet play.. love the plot too.

elektra cult thingy but cool, unfinished though
sky captain cool very nice... save for the old pict effect, a very nice movie
Sin City mm, okay, more like an almost nice collection of shows but can't really call it a good movie... bruce willis is becoming a serious joker, i must say...
without a paddle a nice one.. full of laughs, not much expectations but it was actually good
hitch, constantine.. did i mention this before, think so.

back to work now.. smoke ya later.

after the party comes the ..

hey... time streched.. and alls blizz

This week, Thank God, He helped me get that satnac paper submitted this monday... cool. okay, i made a late submission but then, it got accepted and Now its going for a review.

Guess my supervisor did the big papa's job of cordinating and telling a lot of what should be done and how.. but it was kinda coool... We'll see what they day about satnac, then move on to eer, maybe other conferences... but for now.. new mountains to climb, valley's low to slide...

Something else, finally got the Satellite telecommunication project presentation out of the way. It was okay, but not my best presentation ever, cool thing it was not graded. Next work is to finish the report for that course, make it good and submit it on time- thats 5 pm on monday.

The rain is begining to come in on capetown, and that is not too bad...


Motion pics:
Gleaning cube (oldiieee.)
Encino man (oldie. man in mummy,.. )
Confidence (yea right.. dustin H and whos dat guy again.)

Love Actually (romantic, save for the most popular guy playing the dumbest scene.. way to g0)
Elektra (cool fast fighting- thing of comic and games..)

return to teh pride rock- we are one!

darn life,
sometimes, one does things that are bigger than one's self.
Often, one finds one's self standing for what one thinks or feels is right, even to the detriment of one. It hurts so bad, and really, if one was to be selfishly nice to one's self for that moment, the other way would be so pleasurably nice.. but then.. life is probably more than that.

When one puts the big picture in the scene, it makes one feel a lil' big for his/her tiny pair of shoes. Like a cat thinking its an aristocrat...or aristocat...
well, it does feel a lil' good to live for the good of others, hopefully, others are too or at least one person is doing the same for you somewhere, and if not, well, remember, One big fellow did it for you, 2000 years ago, He left his lovely throne, and came to die, he could have loved us from above and solved our problems and kept his life, but he looked ahead and foreseeing a better future, gave his life, making him a Him. Well, with all hope, all good deeds shall lead to a happy ending, if not, at least, you were good.

why does it have to be so painful sometimes though, so bad, One's vision is blurred, like bleeding eyeballs' view. Having such shoulder droppin effects, raising such loud sighs, I thought i could not..... what I'm I doing?... back to work... hey, I've got satnac paper due in hourzz... gezznack!!

Keep it real, keep it alive.

tis smiley!

okay, today, I remember thee, my love, in all thine adonement,
memories, laid to last,
to think i forgot you for some moment, how dreadful...

hey, today, my simulation in java seems to be working, eventhough i haven't compiled it yet, I believe its going to work, my fingers are crossed, my eyes are crossed and even my mind is crossed, cause i've had to keep it straight for so long..
For once, I see my self stepping in the trails of E=mc*c-Master, giving to human hood the generic mathematical system model for MIMO-CDMA system for 2-Transmitter by Q Receivers for q from 1 to that number before "infinity". Thanks partly to Alamouti, mostly to T. Liew and Hanzo, and Bejide.

Here is a poem for thoughts:

Failing and Flying
Everyone forgets that Icarus also flew.
It's the same when love comes to an end,
or the marriage fails and people say
they knew it was a mistake, that everybody
said it would never work. That she was
old enough to know better. But anything
worth doing is worth doing badly.
Like being there by that summer ocean
on the other side of the island while
love was fading out of her, the stars
burning so extravagantly those nights that
anyone could tell you they would never last.
Every morning she was asleep in my bed
like a visitation, the gentleness in her
like antelope standing in the dawn mist.
Each afternoon I watched her coming back
through the hot stony field after swimming,
the sea light behind her and the huge sky
on the other side of that. Listened to her
while we ate lunch. How can they say
the marriage failed? Like the people who
came back from Provence (when it was Provence)
and said it was pretty but the food was greasy.
I believe Icarus was not failing as he fell,
but just coming to the end of his triumph.

Copyright © 2005 Jack Gilbert. From Refusing Heaven, 2005, Alfred A. Knopf. Reprinted with permission.

Good day, my love.